Give Anger to God
Refrain from anger and turn from wrath;
do not fret -- it leads only to evil.
For evil men will be cut off,
but those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land.
-- Psalm 37:8-9
When was the last time you got angry? I don't even have to think about it. I got angry today. Then I got angry with myself for getting angry about something, or more specifically with someone, that I can't change. My anger didn't do either of us any good.
Not that she was even aware of it. That's part of the problem. Some people are so self-focused that they can't see how their destructive behavior is destroying those around them. Or maybe they see but just don't care. And that makes me angry.
It's pointless. A never ending destructive cycle that holds me hostage and makes my life miserable. I want to be the person who always gives it over to God and leaves it there. But I keep taking it back. Again and again. Has anyone else done this? Probably most of us at one point or the other.
I'm simply not willing to live this way anymore. Famous last words. Isn't that how the clique goes? I suspect I'll be asking God for forgiveness again over this same issue. Satan has a way of pointing out our weak spots.
It's just frustrating to see someone you care about being so destructive. That's not just my opinion. Every doctor she's seen says exactly the same thing. But she simply refuses to do what she needs to do to get well. It's her choice. It is. But where do you draw that boundary line? How do you let someone make her own choices and still keep her from destroying you and other family members in the process?
You turn it over to God. And you leave it with Him. God can do far more than we could ever imagine. His goodness and His wisdom surpass anything we could ever know or understand. He'll work it out. Maybe not in the way I would but it will be the best way. And He'll bring good from it because that's what He promises. God always keeps His promises.
So today I give it to Him. All my anger and frustration. I give it to God and trust Him to do what's right, in His timing and in His way.
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