Friday, November 12, 2010

Trust God

"Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you." -- Psalm 9:10

I have trust issues. I know that. It wasn't always so. Life has a way of building walls as experiences destroy hope and innocence. One day something snaps inside and trust is gone. I don't know if it will ever be back.

What I do know is that I trust God and God alone. That's it. I've learned that when it comes down to the end, when there is nothing left, He is there. That's one of those experiences you hope no one else has to live through. But I did live through it and I did survive. There are a lot more survivors in this world that most folks realize. We're pretty good at hiding the scars.

The thing is that God knows everything. He knows about the scars. He was there. That's a big statement. He was there. How many times in your life have you needed someone and that person either couldn't or wouldn't be there for you? It happens to everyone at some point. People let us down. They just do. Just like we let other people down. God doesn't let anyone down. He's never too busy or too disgusted or too, well, anything. He will never turn away a child crying out to Him.

And that's what we are. All of us. We are His children. He loves us all, saved or not. It's His wish that everyone come to know Jesus and accept His gift of salvation. God desires that no one perish. That's the thing about God. He's good. All the time. He wants what is best for us. All the time. He loves us. All the time. What an amazing God we have!

I will probably always have trust issues. I have scars only God can heal. Maybe He'll do that someday. Whatever. I'm okay either way. It took me a long time to get to that point. It's just that walking beside Him is safe for me. He is safe. My security blanket if you will. When the pain rises up and the demons just won't leave me alone, He lifts me up and holds me close until I feel strong enough to stand alone again. But not really alone. Because He never leaves my side.

I trust God. Me. The person who doesn't trust anybody trusts God.